The Definition of a Pet
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“Ahhh,
hmmff, oh.”
Seated
on the edge of his bed, Sehun tried not to look down.
“Mmmphh,
huooohh, oh.”
He
was doing his best not to care. To seem
unaffected, disinterested, in what was happening in his lap.
“Thank
you, oohhh, thank you, I’m so grateful, mmm.”
But
it was really hard not to be affected when his pet was slurping all over his
cock. It was easier if he didn’t look
down, but he could still hear it all, could still feel it. The tenderly pulling suction, keeping him
achingly erect. The devoted licking, his
pet’s tongue slicking and sliding all over his cockhead. His pet was obsessed with him, worshiping
him, tending to his throbbing cock like only the most faithful servant could.
It
was such a wet, juicy blowjob that his balls were dripping. He’d told Hwanhee before that he wanted it
messier, and his pet was a very obedient slut.
Hwanhee was dribbling and drooling all over him, shamelessly
enthusiastic. His pre-cum was smeared
all down his shaft, all over Hwanhee’s chin, shiny on those puffy, red lips.
“Ooh-hh-hh,
ahh, you’re so good to me,” Hwanhee panted.
Clenching
his teeth together, he forced back a groan as Hwanhee slurped him back
down. Fuck, this was good. He was clinging to the edge of orgasm, barely
holding on, and every time he slid between those tender, hungry lips, pleasure
sizzled and built.
“So
grateful,” Hwanhee moaned. “Prince
Sehun? Do you want to plug my other
fuckhole, now?”
Yes. Fuck, yes, that was exactly what he
wanted. “Is it sore?” Controlling himself, he looked down.
Hwanhee
gazed up at him trustingly, eyes wide with heartfelt adoration, lips swollen
from hard work. “I can take it, I want
it, please.”
Sehun
slapped him across the face. “It was a
yes or no question.”
He
gasped, whimpering. His cheek was pink,
but his expression was still just as worshipful when he looked up at Sehun
again. Drool trickled down over his
lower lip and he did nothing to stop it.
“Yes, I’m a little sore. Yes, I
want it. Yes, please.”
“Lube
yourself, and make it fast. You don’t
want me losing interest and trying to go in soft.”
“Yes,
hyungnim, thank you, I’ll be quick, I’m so grateful.”
As
if Sehun’s erection was at any risk of flagging. He watched avidly as Hwanhee got the lube.
With
one hand tied to his own thigh, Hwanhee had to manipulate the bottle
one-handed. On his knees, as he lubed
himself, he stared at Sehun’s crotch, whimpering. His hips hitched eagerly, and he was so
hungry for it, Sehun couldn’t wait to give it to him. Sehun had already fucked him tonight, fucked
him hard, but there was never enough between them. “On your back, when you’re done.” Sehun couldn’t stand seeing him like this, so
needy, so fuckable, so ripe for it.
“Knees up.”
“Yes,
please.” Hwanhee rolled onto his back,
pulling his knees to his shoulders.
“Your fuckhole’s ready for you, hyungnim. I’m such a grateful fuckhole, thank you for
being so good to me.” He cupped his
balls out of the way, showing off his pouting, slick hole.
He
was offering himself completely.
Growling, Sehun slid off of the bed.
Hwanhee moaned ecstatically, squirming, and all of Sehun’s instincts to
take, to possess, to claim, took over.
Mounting him, Sehun was inside him in an instant, thrusting hard,
fucking in as deeply as possible, filling him.
Crying out, he shook under Sehun, jostled by Sehun’s aggression. Stuffed full of Sehun’s cock and shuddering
helplessly, he was so vulnerable, his shocked cries were fuel for Sehun’s lust,
and Sehun cursed, ramming into him again, again, determined to own him, to take
over, to dominate, to make him remember this forever. “Take it, take it,” Sehun chanted, rocking
into him quick and fierce.
“Yes,
yes, thank you. Oohh, oohh-hh-ohh, ooo,
okay, hyungnim, okay, yes, oh, I want it, I want all of it.”
Sehun
was so worked up, he only had another minute of rutting before he was
coming. Unloading his balls in his pet’s
sweet, hot ass, he groaned, triumphant.
“Fuck, yes, take it,” he panted, staring down at his flushed, shivering
pet. It had been a quick, dirty screw,
with no pretense of being for his pet’s pleasure, and he loved that. He loved that he could do this, that he could
use his pet so frankly, that he could be so unforgivably selfish.
“Thank
you, yes, I’m so grateful,” Hwanhee moaned, gazing up at him, dazed and
adoring. “I’m such a grateful
fuckhole. Thank you for letting me be
your jizz vessel, hyungnim, I hope I served you well.”
He
loved that, too. “Cum-hungry slut.” He popped his cock out, and Hwanhee moaned
with pathetic disappointment. Leaning
over his pet, he grabbed hold of his pet’s collar, pulling until Hwanhee’s
shoulders were off of the floor. Then he
settled in, licking his pet’s face all over.
Biting. He nibbled on his pet’s
nose and gnawed on his pet’s jaw and nipped up and down his pet’s
cheekbones. He spat on his pet’s
eyebrows and licked them clean. “Pretty
slut,” he whispered, “pretty pet,” and Hwanhee whispered, “Yours, Prince Sehun,
I’m your slut,” shuddering helplessly in his grip, submitting to him
completely.
He
felt like he was high.
After
badminton, Hwanhee squirmed in close against Sehun on the bed. He wrapped Hwanhee up in his mile-long legs
and rolled over, tucking Hwanhee against the wall. Sighing, pleased, Hwanhee got cozy, stroking
his back.
They
were still there a minute later when Hwanhee heard something. Under the music. He wondered if it was a part of the track,
and then Sehun cringed and said, “Shit,” and he realized what it was. Knocking.
Someone
was at the door.
Their
leaders! The time! “Shit!” he gasped, scrambling upward.
Sehun
grabbed him and kissed his cheek, nipped at him and kissed him again, and
something about it made his pulse race, pulled on his heart, made him feel
emotional, like Sehun wanted to grab one more second with him, like Sehun
wanted to hold onto him just a little bit longer. Like Sehun cared, like this wasn’t just a way
for Sehun to get off, like Sehun couldn’t just toss him aside easily. “Good pet,” Sehun whispered against the side
of his face, his favorite words in the world, and then Sehun was getting up.
Sehun
threw his clothes at him first, then grabbed a pair of underwear. That seemed significant, too, like Sehun was
making sure that he was covered and dressed, like Sehun really cared. Like Sehun was looking out for him, wanted to
protect him.
It
was funny, this relationship. It was so
lopsided, he couldn’t see it any other way.
His heart was in it completely, but he was a loyal servant. Sehun was a prince, and the prince wasn’t
supposed to care about him. That was
kind of the point.
But
the servant-prince thing had always been his thing, first. Sehun had started out on the pet-owner
side. And a pet was a responsibility the
owner deliberately took on, something the owner volunteered to take care
of. Having a pet meant feeding it and
sheltering it and making sure that it stayed out of trouble, keeping it from
getting hurt. A pet was a dependent.
Sehun
expected to protect him.
But
that was so sweet! Stopping with his
clothes only half on, Hwanhee stared at Sehun, wanting to figure all of this
out. Was that why Sehun was so good to
him all of the time? And gave him such
fantastic skinship, after? He was a good
pet. He was a spoiled pet.
Tugging
his jeans up, Sehun glanced over at Hwanhee.
“I’ll
be a good pet,” he blurted out.
Looking
exasperated, Sehun came over to him.
“You can’t dress yourself?” Sehun asked, sounding just like a patient
hyung. Sehun tugged his shirt the rest
of the way on, then smoothed it down, then fixed his hair for him. Really liking this, he smiled up at Sehun,
happy with the attention. He didn’t lift
a hand, just let Sehun do it all.
Sehun
gave Hwanhee’s cheek a quick pat, then turned away. He kicked the dog bowl into the closet and
closed the door on it, shoved the collar into a drawer, kicked the black cloth
and the lube under the bed, and said, “Grab your backpack.”
Oh! Hurrying to obey, Hwanhee got his bag. He snatched up his bottles and oranges,
shoving them inside.
Sehun
pulled a shirt on, turned off the music, and opened the door. “Yeah, hi, sorry,” he said, ruffling his hair.
“You
know that I don’t want to interrupt,” Suho’s voice said. Hwanhee blushed, his whole face going up in
flames, and pretended to have very important things to have to do in his bag so
that he wouldn’t have to look up and see Suho there at the door. EXO’s leader!
He had Sehun’s dried cum all over his ass and he was sure that Suho
could see it right through his pants.
“But it’s late, and it’s time for Hwanhee to go.”
“Yeah,
yeah, sorry,” Sehun said. “He’ll be out
in a second, we’re finished. It’s my
fault.”
“Okay,”
Suho said, like he wanted to lecture more but he was holding back. Hwanhee winced and tried to crawl into his
backpack.
“One
second,” Sehun said.
Hearing
the door close, Hwanhee moaned. Sehun
patted his back, and he straightened, turning.
“You okay?” Sehun asked, cupping his face, rubbing his cheek.
Sehun
touched him like this all of the time.
Petting him like a real pet. The
dog collar, the dog bowl, the dog harness, did Sehun think that he was a real
dog? But after Wooshin and Xiao had said
stuff about “puppy play,” he’d looked that up on-line. And he didn’t think that was what Sehun wanted.
Sehun was pretty much completely in control of what they did together;
if Sehun was into Hwanhee being a dog, that was what they’d do. But it wasn’t. So Sehun didn’t want a dog. Sehun just wanted a pet.
Hwanhee
just wasn’t entirely sure what that meant, to Sehun. Prince and servant made sense to him, but
that was his fantasy. Owner and pet,
that was Sehun’s fantasy, but he wondered if he understood completely what that
meant, really.
Sehun
had kept pushing him away, before, and talking about commitment and
responsibility. The responsibility of
being a pet owner? But he didn’t need
Sehun to be responsible for him. He
didn’t need Sehun to give him food and shelter and all of the rest of it. And what was the commitment part about? How was this a commitment? If Sehun decided to brush him off or stop
seeing him, so what? He’d be devastated,
but why would Sehun care about that? He
wasn’t anybody to Sehun, he was just some hoobae, one of a thousand rookies.
But
he was thinking about it through the prince-servant perspective, again. He assumed that Sehun wouldn’t care because
the prince wouldn’t care about the servant.
But
if an owner lost his dog, he felt bad, right?
He went looking for it. Or if he
had to give it up or put it to sleep, or something, he felt bad.
Sehun
was such a big sunbae, and he’d looked at VIXX’s Hongbin with so much scandal
in his eyes, that Hwanhee had made assumptions about him.
But
he wasn’t only a dark prince. He was a
hyung, too. A hyung who teased and
smiled. A hyung who got impatient but
never mean. A hyung who apologized a lot
and made Hwanhee feel like being really fucking kinky was okay.
A
prince wouldn’t do those things. A nice
prince would, maybe, but Hwanhee had never really wanted a nice prince.
An
owner, though. He wouldn’t want a cruel
owner. But a nice owner, a generous
owner who spoiled him, wasn’t that too much to ask for? He’d never expect that!
Oh,
this was too complicated. He wanted to
ask Sehun about it, but they didn’t have any time. “Can I call you, later?”
“Of
course, you can always call me,” Sehun said, like he should’ve known that. Sehun stroked his hair. “You okay?”
He
had a thousand questions. “Yeah.” He hugged Sehun, just to show himself that he
could.
Sehun
was a good hyung who hugged him right back.
“You sure? I don’t want you to go
if you feel weird. We can ask Jinhoo
hyung to stay for a minute. I can abuse
my sunbae authority.”
He
smiled at that. “I’m okay.” He kissed Sehun’s shoulder and pulled
back. “I should go, you need rest, you
have to fly out tomorrow, and I - - wait, how late is it?” he demanded,
suddenly alarmed. “Shit, holy shit, is
it really late? Jinhoo hyung’s going to
kill me. God, I hope that Kuhn hyung
didn’t stay up waiting again! I can’t
have both of them mad at me.”
“It
can’t be that late,” Sehun said, but he wasn’t even a little bit convincing.
“I
gotta go.” But it was really hard to
rush away from Sehun. Giving Sehun a
hopeful smile, he tilted his face to one side, showing Sehun his cheek.
Sehun
cupped his chin and kissed him right there, on his left cheekbone, sucking on
him just a little and then nibbling on him delicately.
Wow. This pet-owner thing might be more amazing
than he’d realized. He’d totally
underestimated it. He was going to have
to figure this out. Cute pets got all
sorts of treats and rewards!
The
next night, Hwanhee curled up in bed with his phone. He ran his fingers over the puppies
decorating the case and wondered what Sehun thought of him. What Sehun really wanted from him, and if he
was doing it right or not.
He
knew how to be a dongsaeng and a servant.
He hadn’t thought about how to be a pet.
He’d made a lot of assumptions about what being somebody’s pet meant,
but he’d just skimmed the surface of it.
He’d focused more on what it meant for Sehun to be his owner than what
it meant for him to be a pet.
The
idea that Sehun owned him gave him a thrill every time his thoughts bumped into
it. But Sehun didn’t own him like he
owned his phone or his shoes or his bellhop uniform. A pet wasn’t a thing, an object, unthinking and just to be used. A pet was alive. It had ideas and wants and needs of its
own. A pet had to be taken care of,
looked after, treated in certain ways.
No
one had a real relationship with an object, but people had relationships with
their pets, didn’t they? An owner might
come home and find that the pet was hungry, or needed a walk, or was happy to
see him. An owner might have a hard day
and get comfort from the pet. Pets
wagged their tails and wanted attention and learned tricks.
Pets
were comforting and entertaining. They
were cute. People fed them and looked
after them, and in return had something to cuddle and something to play with.
Was
that what Sehun wanted? Comfort and
entertainment? Cuteness, cuddling,
playfulness?
He
could do that! He was a maknae! He did that for his hyungs all of the time!
He’d
have to work on his aegyo. He definitely
had to improve that. Did Sehun want more
skinship? He loved skinship with Sehun.
Hugging
his pillow, he unlocked his phone. He
needed to look up cat videos. He had
things to learn.
Sehun
checked his messages.
“Hi,
hyung! It’s your happy Hwanhee! I hope that you’re having a good day! Let me know if you want anything, okay? You’re working hard, but make sure that you
get some rest, you’re too good-looking to be stressed out. Hyung, fighting! Hwanhee out!”
He
smiled. It was like all of Hwanhee’s
messages, checking in with him, offering to do things for him. But there was something energizing and
encouraging about it. Hwanhee was
adorable. Undoing his fly, he played it
again.
Sehun’s
call went to voicemail.
He
didn’t leave a message. He just hung up.
A
couple of hours later, his phone rang.
Seeing his pet’s name on the caller ID, he smiled. Leaning back on the couch, he slid his hand down
the front of his pants and answered.
Deliberately sounding bored, he said, “Yeah.”
Beside
him on the couch, Chanyeol gave him a disbelieving look.
“Hyung? It’s your Hwanhee calling. I’m sorry that I missed your call, earlier, I
would’ve answered right away if I could have.
Is it okay to call back now, is this a good time, should I call back
later?”
“This
is fine,” he said indifferently. He
wasn’t fondling himself, just cupping.
Just holding himself and listening to his pet’s happy voice.
“Thank
you for calling, earlier. It’s so great
when you call. And thank you for
answering! I’m so glad to get to talk to
you and hear your voice. How are you, is
everything okay? I hope that you had a
good day, today.”
His
pet sounded so bright, so cheery. He
smiled. “Yeah, it was good.” His thumb stroked lightly, just at the
base. His spine relaxed, his eyes
slipping shut. “How was your day?”
“It
was nice, hyung, I had a good day, we were busy. Do you want me to tell you about it?”
“Yeah.” He licked his lips, rubbing himself. “Tell me all about it.”
“Oh,
god,” Hwanhee said softly, and then he cleared his throat. “Okay, well, um…”
A
few minutes later, Sehun came in a hot rush.
He grunted as he climaxed, wanting his pet to hear it. The sudden waver in his pet’s voice made him
smile with satisfaction.
“Who
are you on the phone with?” Chanyeol asked.
“Is
that one of your members?” Hwanhee asked.
“Are you with EXO? Are they
helping you?”
“Nobody
helps me like you do,” Sehun murmured.
Getting up, he left, heading for the privacy of his room. “I want to see you.”
“I’ll
be there as soon as I can. What do you
need from me now, what can I do?”
Getting
comfortable on his bed, he relaxed, rubbing his stomach. “You said that you wanted to call me. What did you want to talk about?”
“Um,
is it okay if we talk in person? It’s
awkward, over the phone.”
“Yeah,
okay. Let’s meet at your practice room
soon.”
“Okay,
hyung, I’ll look forward to it.”
He
didn’t need his pet only to agree with him.
“Is that where you want to meet?”
“I
want to meet wherever you want to meet.”
“Where
would you feel the most comfortable talking about whatever you want to talk
about?”
“I
like being in your room the best. It’s
my favorite place. But I can’t always be
in your dorm, and you have a lot of members, I don’t want to be in the
way. The practice room is good, we can
talk there.”
He
wanted his pet to feel comfortable. He
wanted his pet to feel safe. “We’ll meet
here at my dorm, then. But we’ll just
talk, we won’t do anything else. So a
few of my members might be around, and you can tell Jinhoo that he doesn’t have
to bring you himself, there’s no reason to baby-sit.”
“No
checkers?” Hwanhee asked. “But maybe a
little checkers, right? I can be
quick. I’m getting better at the things
you like, right, it won’t take me too long to, um, win the game. Or, I guess you’re winning the game.” He laughed.
“You know what I mean, right?”
“I
don’t want you to rush the talk to get to the game. I want you to say whatever you want to say.”
“Checkers
first? And then we can talk after.”
“Hwanhee-ah,”
he said firmly. “No checkers.”
“Maybe
a little checkers, after.”
He
growled.
Hwanhee
made a soft, breathy sound. A shaky gasp
followed by a purring exhalation. So
much reverence, so much desire. His pet
was so responsive. So needy.
“Have
you been taking your vitamins?”
“Yes. Yeah.
It’s been, um, really nice.”
“We
can’t play checkers every time we see each other. But that doesn’t change the facts. What’s true is always true, whether we play
checkers that day or not. Whether I see
you that day or not.”
“Your
shoes are your shoes, whether they’re on your feet or not,” Hwanhee said
softly.
He
growled in satisfaction. “That’s right.”
“Property
of Oh Sehun,” Hwanhee said. “Is always
property of Oh Sehun.”
It
sounded so good. So right. “What I own, I own. What’s mine is mine, Hwanhee-ah.”
Hwanhee
was taking shallow, shuddering breaths.
“Put
your hand on top of your head, Hwanhee-ah.”
“I
can’t let go of the phone.”
He
wanted to laugh. “Your other hand.”
Hwanhee
made a low, distressed noise. His pet’s
whimpering was such a sexy, constant little sound. “I did it, hyung. My hand’s on top of my head.”
“Good. We’ll meet here at my dorm, as soon as we can.”
“If
it’s faster, we can meet at my practice room.
Whatever’s the soonest. It can be
anywhere, I just want to see you.”
“I
want you to feel safe, I want you to feel like you can say whatever you want to
say.”
“If
we’re alone in the room, if I’m with you, I can talk anywhere.”
His
pet’s faith in him was complete. Hwanhee
was aware of his flaws and called him on his shit and made accusations directly
to his face, and still believed in him completely. That level of trust was an enormous
responsibility. “Okay. I’ll let Suho hyung know. I’ll try to make it soon.”
“I
need my bowl, can I have my bowl? Can I
get my own?”
“No,”
he said calmly. God, Hwanhee’s need
turned him on. And that honesty, asking
for the bowl, damn. “Hwan-ah?”
Hwanhee’s
breath caught. “Yes, hyungnim? I’m here.”
“Go
and clean the kitchen, and then you can make your mess.”
He
heard a low, hoarse moan, right in his ear.
“Yes, hyungnim. Thank you, thank
you, I’ll do that.” Hwanhee groaned, a
throaty sound of raw eroticism. “You’re
so good to me.”
Hwanhee
packed his bag. Juice, cola, water,
milk, cookies, grapes, oranges, his carefully folded uniform. Sehun had said that they wouldn’t play badminton,
but he wanted to be ready. Just in case.
He
shoved his silver bracelets into his pocket.
He didn’t have to wear them on the way over.
He’d
been having dreams about being tied up.
Really intense dreams, really vivid, really physical. Of being tied down, being strapped to things,
being helpless and immobilized, being trapped and bound up. In his dreams, Sehun showed up - - or L, or
Woohyun, but mostly Sehun - - and got on top of him and started fucking him. But he was tied too tightly, and he couldn’t
respond. He couldn’t show Sehun how much
he liked it, how much he wanted it. And
when it got rough, when it got intense, he couldn’t get away.
So
he started off his mornings rock-hard and shaking with ecstasy, getting off in
a thrilling whirlwind of helpless, pounding lust. It was an intoxicating jolt to kick start his
day, and things stayed great from there.
His memories of serving Sehun were vivid, and there was so much to keep
the high going. His daily phone
call. The time he spent double-checking
and improving his lists. The sight of
his harness hanging right there in his closet.
Simple things - - the scent of orange juice, the taste of grapes, a pile
of dirty dishes, a pile of clean dishes - - anything could spark that sense of
pleasure and desire and fulfillment.
Sometimes
he felt needy. Or helpless with
desperation. Or sick with shame. But there was a hot, sweet edge to that, too. He was a filthy slut to his very core, and
there were going to be times that he felt the deep, awful impact of it. He just had to admit it, and face it, and try
not to let it overwhelm him until he was in front of his owner again, until he
was in front of his prince and he could let it out.
He’d
been spending more time on the floor, around the dorm. Sitting on the floor, or lying on it. Not crawling, or anything, he didn’t want it
to seem weird. It was just that he liked
being on the floor. He felt comfortable
down there. Even when his prince wasn’t
around to put him in his place, he still knew where he belonged.
In
front of Sehun’s door, he fluffed his hair with both hands. He looked okay, right? He wondered if he should add scarves or
bandannas or something to his backpack.
Maybe if he brought his own, um…restraints? Maybe Sehun would like that. Or maybe it would just encourage Sehun to tie
him up more. But he should want that,
right? If it made Sehun happy, then it
was a good thing.
Sehun
opened the door.
He
smiled, feeling joy ring in him. “Hi,
hyung!” As soon as they were in and the
door was closed, he hugged Sehun. Pets
were always excited to greet their owners, and he was a good pet. He rubbed his nose against Sehun’s shoulder,
inhaling, and then he kissed Sehun’s shoulder.
“You always smell so good.”
“Oh,
is that Hwanhee? Is he here?”
Hearing
his name, he looked over Sehun’s shoulder to see EXO members heading his
way. Chanyeol and Baekhyun and Kai. Surprised, he laughed. “Hello.”
“Don’t
bother him,” Sehun said, turning around.
“No
one’s bothering anybody, we’re saying hi,” Baekhyun said. “Hey, Nibbles.”
Was
Baekhyun talking to him? Realizing what
Baekhyun had just called him, he burst into laughter. “Hi, hyung.”
“Holy
shit, don’t call him that,” Sehun said.
“I’m
trying it out, does it work?” Baekhyun asked.
“Might be a good nickname.”
“Nibbles,
why Nibbles?” Chanyeol asked.
“Please
don’t explain, no,” Sehun said. “We’ll
be in my room.”
“Sounds
like a nickname for a mouse,” Chanyeol said.
“Like somebody’s pet mouse.”
He
wasn’t a pet mouse. He definitely wasn’t
a pet dog, either. He was just a
pet. A good pet. Sehun’s pet.
Feeling a warm glow of pride, he took Sehun’s hand. Because this was a hyung that he could do
that to, if he wanted. He kind of hoped
that Sehun would hold on firmly and drag him off in an impatient rush, like
that first time they’d played badminton here, when Sehun had yanked him into
the bedroom and thrown him down on the bed and changed his life.
Sehun
laced their fingers together and gave his hand a light tug, stepping back. As Sehun turned and walked away, he
followed. This hyung was so nice to
him. He was such a spoiled pet.
“Okay,
bye, Nibbles, see you later!” Baekhyun called after him.
“Shit,”
Sehun said, and raised his voice. “Don’t
call him that!”
“He’s
not listening,” Hwanhee said. “You’re
his maknae.”
Sehun
pushed him into the room and closed the door.
“Badminton,”
he said, and started going down on his knees.
“No,”
Sehun said firmly, dragging him back up.
“Badminton,”
he said again. Curling his arms around
Sehun’s neck, he whispered it, gazing hopefully up into Sehun’s face. “Badminton, badminton.”
Sehun
closed his eyes, pressing his lips together.
Was
it really working? Feeling a swell of
hope, Hwanhee pushed the best button he had.
“I think you should go down on me later.”
Sehun’s
eyes opened slowly, and the dark prince glared at him. A happy shiver ran down his spine, and he
held still, his breath caught in his throat.
He’d cozied up really close, and now he and Sehun were chest to chest,
nose to nose. “I’m not going to be that
easy to manipulate.”
He
loved how in control Sehun was.
“Badminton.”
“No.” Sehun pushed a backpack strap off of his
shoulder. “Sit down.”
He
set down his backpack and started to-
“On
the bed.”
He
got back up, sighing. “Pets belong on
the floor,” he reminded Sehun, but he sat on the side of the bed.
Sehun
turned music on. Not too loud, but
pretty loud. “My hyungs are around, but
they won’t bother us.”
Hwanhee
scooted back across the bed, leaning against the wall behind him. He liked being allowed to relax in this room,
liked getting comfortable with Sehun. He
wasn’t only a fuckhole to Sehun, he was a dongsaeng, too, someone Sehun didn’t
mind talking to in between games of badminton.
He hadn’t expected that a prince, if he ever found one, would tease him
and hug him back.
Sehun
sat beside him, handsome and sexy. “What
do you want to ask me about?”
He
licked his lips and decided to start with the main point. Feeling self-conscious about not already
knowing, but trusting Sehun to tell him, he met Sehun’s eyes. “What’s a pet?”
“You
are.” Sehun drew his knees up, running
his hands over his thighs. Relaxing
against the wall, he smiled at Hwanhee in a really pleased, satisfied way. “You’re a perfect pet.”
He
loved the way Sehun said that, but, “What does that mean, though? What is a pet? Like, I know that it’s a, um, a dom-sub
thing, but besides that, like. There are
other things you could call me, like your slave, but you call me your pet. You call yourself my owner. What does that mean?”
Sehun
hesitated.
“Was
it always your idea?” Hwanhee asked.
“Did you get it from somewhere?
Was it the First Pet’s idea?”
“It
was mine,” Sehun said. He looked a
little stuck. “I don’t know how to put
it into words.”
Then
he hadn’t had to explain it to the First Pet?
The First Pet had just known, had understood.
Hwanhee
tried not to let that get to him. He
couldn’t compete with the First Pet, he knew that. But it wasn’t like he was totally screwing
up, not if Sehun kept calling him perfect.
Perfect. Like he couldn’t do any better. It was such an amazing thing to say. It was such a complete compliment. Perfect.
“A
pet listens,” Sehun said. “And
obeys. A pet works hard to please
me. A pet wants to keep me happy.”
Hwanhee
nodded. “Then it’s my job to think of
things that you’ll like.”
“You’re
a very.” Sehun hesitated, pressing his
lips together. “You’re a very active
pet. You take a lot of initiative. It’s good,” he added. “I like it.
But you don’t have to. Or, I
don’t want you to feel like you need to do more of it than you already do. It’s okay for a pet to be passive. To react, not act.”
“Like
a, like a pet turtle?” Hwanhee asked. He
wanted to be sure that he had this right.
“It sits around and does nothing and waits for you.”
“Like
a pet dog. Wait for me to come home,
fetch things when I say, do tricks when I say, follow commands.”
Good,
okay. Feeling more sure of himself,
Hwanhee nodded again. “How do owners
feel about their pets?”
“Proud,”
Sehun said. “And protective. You’re very brave - - god, you’re so fucking
brave - - but you’re really vulnerable, too, so I want to shield you from
everything.” He tucked his hands in the
bends of his knees. “Possessive. I feel really, really, really fucking
possessive. All of the time.”
He
wanted to ask about the “brave” thing.
That didn’t make any sense to him.
But he didn’t want to interrupt; he wanted to hear more of this train of
thought.
“You’re
really cute sometimes,” Sehun said. “It
makes me want to tease you. You’re
clever, you’re bold, I’m really proud of you.
The pet thing, it’s like - - I want to take care of you. Feed you and give you a bath and watch you
sleep, give you toys to play with. Like
I would if you were the animal kind of pet, like a pet dog. Owning you means that I have complete
control, but there’s a lot of responsibility in that. It’s not only punishing you for being bad. It’s training you, too, so you can be good,
and taking care of you, so you feel safe.”
Give you a bath. Hwanhee’s mind was blown. He’d never expected his prince to bring up
something like that. Give him a bath? But that was caretaking. Oh, god.
Staring at Sehun, he blinked a few times, trying to clear his vision,
but he wasn’t having trouble seeing, he was having trouble comprehending. He’d been wondering about the caretaking
aspect of real pets with real owners, but it had just been abstract, in his
mind. This was Sehun bringing it up,
talking about it like it was a possible part of things.
“What?” Sehun smiled at him. “What’d I say?”
“You,
could you, like. Would you ever, I
mean.” Blushing, he felt too shy to
ask. “Would you ever try something like
that? Giving me a bath and, like, taking
care of me? Like I was a real pet?”
“You
are a real pet.”
“But,
I mean.” He bit his lip, holding back
nervous laughter.
“Yes,”
Sehun said. “Yes, I want to.” Sehun brushed at the bangs falling into
Hwanhee’s eyes, smiling again. “I’m very
proud of the way my pet looks. I’d like
to wash you. Groom you. You already know I like dressing you up.”
God. A whole new world of sexual fantasy opened
up, filling Hwanhee’s mind.
He’d
never thought to want this, before. An
owner who took care of him. Someone to
train him. Punish him. Reward him.
It was so much like his own fantasies, but so different. There was a generosity to it that he’d never
expected. He hadn’t known that this was
even possible. He’d imagined that his
prince would only want to take and take, not give. Who would want to give him anything, if they
knew what a dirty slut he was? But his
owner wanted to protect him. Wanted him
to feel safe.
“My
prince, the one in my head, that I used to think about before I met you,”
Hwanhee said. “He treated me like dirt,
a lot of the time, but I liked that. He
was generous, too, but that was mostly letting me suck his cock. That was a great reward! But mostly that was the only reward. Letting me touch him, letting me serve him,
letting me near him, that was the best.
But you. You’re really good to
me. I didn’t think that you would be, I
didn’t think it could be like this.”
“Were
you looking for a cruel prince?”
“A
cold prince. I thought that he wouldn’t
think anything of me, that I’d be too far beneath him for him to notice me. I’d just be some worthless nobody who lived to
serve him. In my fantasies, one of the
best things ever is if I get to bathe you.
Like the most special servant who gets to help the prince to wash and
dress. That’s a big deal, only the most
trusted, valuable servants get jobs like that.
It never occurred to me that you’d wash me!”
“You’re
different from what I expected,” Sehun said.
“But I guess that I’m different from what you expected, too.”
“Better,”
Hwanhee said immediately. “You’re so, so
much better. You’re so, damn, you’re a
million times better. I didn’t know that
I could have this, I didn’t know that anyone like you even existed. I didn’t even know that it was okay to ask
for this, in my own head, in my fantasies.”
“It’s
okay if you want to ask for changes.”
“Change
what?” he demanded. “Don’t change
anything! No, no changes. All of the stuff I expected, before, was
worse than this. I never thought that
you’d want to see me so often, or that you’d think of me like a dongsaeng. I thought that you’d use me to get off once
in a while and not have much time for me in between. Not super mean, just, not super nice,
either. Like you’d just call me up and
tell me to come over, or meet me somewhere, and get off in me real quick, and
go back to your life. I was looking
forward to that! That was a huge goal
for me. I thought that you’d only want
to use me, and I wanted to be used, but I had no idea that you’d, like, hug me
afterward or have our members hang out together.”
“You
do a lot for me,” Sehun said. “You give
me everything you have. I can’t take
that for granted.”
“You
could, though. You totally could. I’d still show up.”
Sehun
shook his head. “If I can’t take care of
you, I shouldn’t have a pet at all.”
“That’s
why you always talk about what a big responsibility it is. Because you think that you have to take care
of me. That’s why you only have me, not
me and Hongbin sunbae and-”
“Stop
bringing up Hongbin hyung!”
“But
you could have a dozen pets. You only
have one because I’m not just a filthy fuckhole to you. I’m more than that, I’m somebody you feel
responsible for, I’m somebody you think you have to take care of.”
“Yes. Yeah, you are.”
“But
I don’t.” He closed his mouth,
uncertain. Really, weirdly
uncertain. He swallowed, feeling
agitated, unsure.
“What?” Sehun scooted closer, looking concerned.
“I
don’t know if I, I mean.” He fluffed his
hair with both hands, not meeting Sehun’s eyes.
“You’re really - - you’re you,” he explained, gesturing. “If you’re going to treat somebody like that,
pamper somebody, giving baths and toys, watching them sleep and everything,
shouldn’t it be somebody really special?
Somebody super handsome and super sexy and, like, special,” he said again.
“You can’t do that to just any random pet you find on the street. Princes don’t adopt strays, they have
thoroughbreds with certificates who win awards and stuff.”
“Fuck
that,” Sehun said sharply, shaking his head.
“No, fuck that. You’re special,
you’re special as hell, you’re one of the most special people I’ve ever
met. I want to show you off, I want to
go around to the other doms I know, to everybody I know, and show off how sexy
and cute and perfect you are.”
Surprised, trying to take it all in, Hwanhee leaned in, and he wrapped
his hand around Hwanhee’s wrist, tight, anchoring. “You are special. You should be more pampered and more spoiled,
not less. I should treat you better than
I do, you just let me get away with it because you’re too loyal to me.”
“There
is no better,” he said, amazed. “There
can’t be anything better than this.”
Sehun
smiled at him. “I think you’re just
proving my point.”
Oh. Catching on, he smiled. Yeah, okay, maybe. “I want to meet the other doms you know. I want to talk to them. I want them to give me tips on how I can serve
you better. Is the servant thing
okay? Do you like it, or - - I know it’s
my idea, not yours, it’s okay if you’re not into it.”
“When
I fucked you on my couch, did I seem not into it?”
He
blushed, remembering. “Yeah, that was,
um. You seemed to like it,” he
admitted. The way Sehun had rocked into
him. The deep, thick, fullness of
Sehun’s erection inside of him. The
scrape and bite of Sehun’s teeth. God,
he was so spoiled. Right on the
couch! “Do you ever, um, do you have sex
with your members there, maybe? On the
couch?”
“Yeah.” Sehun grinned at him. “That couch has endured a lot.”
When
Sehun let go of his wrist, he missed the sensation of it there, holding onto
him. He dug into his pockets and pulled
out his bracelets. He put them on,
wincing as they dug in around the widest part of his hand before slipping down
around each wrist. “A good pet should be
obedient. You want me to listen to you
and let you do anything. You want to get
away with it, you want me to take it, whatever happens.”
Sehun
nodded.
“But
I should react, not act? You said that
I’m bold. I take too much
initiative?” He wasn’t very worried that
he was doing everything wrong, but he wanted to know what he could do to get it
all exactly right.
“No,
it’s not too much. It’s great. You come up with really good ideas, I like
it.” Sehun stroked Hwanhee’s hair,
smoothing it down in the back. Trusting
him, wanting to hear everything, Hwanhee watched him closely. “But you don’t have to come up with
anything. If you prepare a lot and get
ready to see me, and you have something cute to wear for me, and you have a
sexy new trick to show me, I’ll be really happy. But if I show up and you haven’t prepared
anything, that’s great, too. I want to
see you, just you, that’s what counts.
I’m the owner, I’m in charge.
There’s nothing that you ever need to worry about. It’s my job to handle everything. As my pet, you’re my responsibility, I’m not
yours.”
Wow. “I’m your responsibility,” Hwanhee said
softly, absorbing that. “You’re not
mine.” That was a new way of looking at
it.
He
could be a good servant and prepare a lot.
Or he could be a good pet who was just happy to see his owner. And both were totally okay.
“Whatever
happens when I’m out of the room, if you don’t have time to prepare, if you
don’t feel like preparing, none of that matters. What matters is that as soon as I walk in,
everything else stops. You’re my pet,
you’re there for me, you’re obedient. If
you don’t bring me orange juice, I can spit on you just fine. I’m going to get from you what I need.” Sehun stroked the hair above his ear and
smiled. “And I’ll give you what you
need, too.”
“Oh,
god, I always get what I want,” Hwanhee said.
“You give me everything I could ever ask for.” He liked preparing to see his prince; it was
a big part of the fantasy for him. Or a
big part of the reality. And it helped
him, like, it reassured him, or soothed him, or something, when time stretched
out between visits and he really wanted to see Sehun again. He was definitely going to keep planning and
preparing. But it was really nice to
know that he didn’t have to. According
to Sehun, all he had to do was show up.
Sehun liked him for him. “Am I a
good slut? Like, am I actually the kind
of pet you want? Or am I just the only
one you have, right now?”
“Shit,
pet.” Sehun cupped the side of his neck,
stroked the side of his face. “How do
you remember every word out of my mouth, and then never hear anything I say? You’re incredible. I give you everything you could ask for? You literally give me everything I ask you
for. You’re the only pet I want. I went through hell before I found you, and I
can’t believe I ever got this lucky.
You’re a fucking miracle.”
He
couldn’t believe that his prince could feel this way about him. “I can be sluttier,” he promised. “Anything you want, I’ll do anything for
you. I say that a lot, but I really mean
it. You can tell me to do anything. I can learn to do it however you like it. I disobey a lot, I know I’m undisciplined,
but I’ll work on it.”
“You
don’t have to work on a goddamned thing.”
Sehun leaned in so close that his heart pounded, and then Sehun was
brushing soft, tender kisses over his cheek and he had to close his eyes. “You don’t have to do anything for me. You’ve already given me everything I could
want.”
It
was too much. Pleasure and devotion were
throbbing in him, taking over his heart.
His prince was treating him so well, it made him want to dedicate himself
to his prince even more completely, made him want to sacrifice everything, turn
himself inside-out and give up everything he had. For a precious, daring second, he turned his
head, pressing his face to his prince’s smooth neck. “I’m grateful.” Then he slid down, off of the side of the
bed. On the floor, on his knees, he
arched his back, lowering his head to the mattress. It felt so good to be in his place.
“Hwanhee-”
“I’m
comfortable here.” Settling in, he
crossed his arms over the edge of the mattress and looked up at Sehun. Mmm, Sehun looked so tall and intimidating,
from down here. It felt just right. “A pet is a responsibility, right, but you
used to talk about commitment a lot. I
never really got that. Like, I thought
I’d be more like a convenience. For a
commitment, a responsibility, you make an investment, right? But a convenience, I thought you’d see me
when you felt like it, and you’d get off however you wanted to, and then when
you got bored, or when you found somebody else, you’d just stop calling. But you always act like we’re in a
relationship.”
“I’ve
told you, I can’t do this casually.”
It
hadn’t made as much sense, before. “The
servant is dedicated to the prince because you’re royalty. You’re special, you’re everything. But for the prince, the servants are
interchangeable. I wash your dishes, I
have a convenient fuckhole, there’s nothing else to it, for you. But if I’m a pet, then. I’m not like a stray cat, I’m a real
pet. But I have another owner, I have
Jinhoo hyung, I get food and shelter from him.
You don’t have to feel responsible for me. Is it.”
He hesitated. This seemed like a
really big thing to ask. “Is it because
you want to? Is that just a side effect
of it, or is that part of the fantasy, for you?”
Sehun
didn’t say anything for a minute, just looked at Hwanhee. Then he ran his hand through his hair and
looked conflicted. “Shit, you ask hard
questions.”
Hwanhee
winced. “Sorry. You don’t have to tell me-”
“No. No, you deserve an answer, I just.” Sehun sighed, dropping his hand. “It’s both.
Part of it is just a natural consequence of how this works. You’re so vulnerable, and you give me so much
of yourself, I owe it to you to take care of you. I can’t use you up and then neglect you and
abandon you. I can’t be that kind of
person. There’s a lot that I do to you
that looks wrong to people on the outside, but that would seem wrong, to
me. And then.” He paused again. “Yeah,” he finally said. “It’s part of the fantasy. I take a lot of pride in being a good owner,
and that’s a part of what being a good owner means, to me. Taking good care of you. Not just getting what I want, but making sure
that you feel good about it, too. Making
sure that you’re happy and healthy. When
you’re satisfied and smiling at me, purring like a happy pet, it feels
great. And when you’re nervous or
worried about something, I want to make it easier for you. And, yeah, I want to wash you, I want to
spoil you, it’s fun.”
Hwanhee
took all of that in. He held Sehun’s
gaze. He wanted to be clear on
this. “Then we’re in a relationship.”
“Yes,”
Sehun said, not looking away. “Is that
okay?”
Sehun
had said it to him before, but he hadn’t taken it seriously. It hadn’t been a word that he understood, in
this context.
A
prince-servant relationship. A pet-owner
relationship. He’d thought of
“relationship” as a synonym for “dynamic.”
But this was different. This was
a real relationship.
A
Sehun and Hwanhee relationship. A
commitment between two people. A
bond. With emotions and intentions. He was in a relationship with EXO’s Sehun.
“Do
you like me?”
“It’s
not that kind of relationship.”
“No,
I know, but.” He asked again, still
leaning over the side of the bed. “Do
you like me?”
“It’s
not that. It’s different from
that.” Sehun rubbed his knee. “It’s a lot more intense than that.”
Hwanhee
nodded. Okay. This was a lot to take in. He’d heard Sehun say a lot of this before,
but he hadn’t really grasped what Sehun meant, then. He knew Sehun better, now. He was finally catching up. “What about aegyo, do you want me to be
cute?”
“Yes,
I like it from you.”
“Do
you want skinship?”
“Outside
of a scene, you can always touch me however you want. Anything’s okay. When we’re in front of other people, even
just our members, I have to be really careful about how I touch you. I don’t want anyone to misunderstand and
think that I don’t respect you. So I
might not touch you much. But I do like
skinship, I want you to feel comfortable with me.”
“You
can do anything in front of my members, they understand. Not private stuff!” he hurried to add. “But regular stuff. You can touch me however you want, they know
about us.”
Sehun
studied him carefully. “Do you want
skinship?”
“Yes.” Hearing how fast he’d said it, he laughed
self-consciously. “Uh, yeah. It’s nice!
It really feels good. You’re
really handsome and you’re really nice to me.”
“The
last thing I want is for anyone to make assumptions or to think that I take you
lightly. Anyone who knows about us, and
sees us together, might think that I feel like I can put my hands wherever I
want because I think you’re my property.”
“I
am your property.”
“They
don’t know that.”
“But
if they know about us, they do know that.”
“Not
exactly.”
“You
own me,” Hwanhee said. God, it gave him
a rush every time.
“I
don’t tell people that. Nobody knows
that I use those words. They don’t hear
me say ‘pet’ or ‘owner’ or any of it.”
“Nobody? Not even King Suho?”
“He’s
not a king.”
“All
of my members know that you’re my prince.
They know about my harness and my uniform, they know what’s in my
backpack - - they don’t know why, they don’t know what the orange juice is
for. They know I cleaned your kitchen,
they know a lot.”
“So
does Chunji hyung.”
He
nodded. “And Changjo hyung. Not everything! Not everything my members know. But Chunji hyung’s been really nice. I think he wants to check up on me, to make
sure that I’m okay. Not that he thinks
anything’s wrong!”
A
strange look crossed over Sehun’s face, and he nodded. “Yeah.
I’m not going to discourage that.
It’s good that you have people in your life who know what’s going on and
care about you. If I hurt you, I don’t
want to get away with it. They’ll make
sure that I don’t.”
That
sounded serious. “You wouldn’t hurt me.”
“I
don’t want to. God, pet.” Sehun slid forward, leaning closer and
cupping Hwanhee’s face. “I don’t ever,
ever want to. But if I do, I need to
know about it, and I need to be held responsible for it. And if you try to let me get away with it,
they won’t. Jinhoo and Chunji hyung and
Changjo won’t.”
Okay. Okay, he understood that, he believed
that. “But you wouldn’t hurt me,” he
said again. “You’re a really good owner. You care a lot about how I feel and if I’m
okay. You worry about that more than I
do.” Remembering their first time, he
laughed. “You were the one bringing up
safe words. I just wanted to get
started.” Liking the way Sehun was
leaning so close, he tilted his face up.
Sehun
kissed his cheek.
Smiling,
he hummed. He was super spoiled. “You never hurt the First Pet, did you?”
“No. No, I never did. There were some really rough times when I
couldn’t be with him, when I couldn’t take care of him, and that’s why I didn’t
want to try again with you. I couldn’t
let someone down like that again. But I
never hurt him that way.”
“I
can’t believe he left you. I can’t
believe anybody would leave you. Was it
an emergency?” It couldn’t have been
voluntary. A pet would never, ever run
away from such a powerful, generous, protective owner.
“Things
changed in his life. He didn’t leave me,
he left the situation he was in, and because he did that, we couldn’t see each
other anymore.” Sehun stroked Hwanhee’s
cheek. “It was hard on him.”
“It
was hard on you, too, though.” Hwanhee
couldn’t imagine it. Couldn’t imagine
hurting Sehun. “I’m not going
anywhere. You’re going to have to work
really hard to get rid of me. I think
you shouldn’t even try. I think that if
you want a new pet, you’ll just have to get a second one, and just have two for
a while. You can have a Hwanhee pet and
a Hong-”
“Stop
talking about Hongbin hyung!” Sehun exclaimed, bursting into laughter.
“Who
else do you want?” He was really
curious. “Who’s your type? Do you like older pets? Tall pets?”
Sehun
smiled, stretching out on his stomach.
It was so cozy, Sehun so close, so relaxed, the two of them
face-to-face. He idly, fondly rubbed his
thumb over Hwanhee’s cheek. “Short pets
are fun. I like little pets.”
“I’m
not little! I’m not as tall as you,
maybe, but-”
“Maybe,”
Sehun repeated, laughing.
“-but
that doesn’t mean anything, you’re just really tall. I’m normal sized, this is a regular height.”
“There’s
nothing wrong with being short,” Sehun said.
“A lot of my favorite hyungs are short.”
“You
think King Suho’s short,” Hwanhee accused, delighted.
“He’s
not a king,” Sehun said, rolling his eyes.
Then he grinned. “He is short,
though. It’s cute!” he insisted when
Hwanhee laughed. “Little hyungs are
sexy.”
Oh! Hwanhee squirmed closer, pressing against the
side of the bed. “Is King Suho
little? Or are you calling him little?”
Sehun
flicked his cheek. While he said, “Ow!”
Sehun said, “That’s none of your business.”
“I
won’t joke about the royal penis,” he decided.
“Is that your type, though? Short
hyungs?” Or, ooohhh. “Is that
your type? Little hyungs?” He grinned, wondering. “Then I’m not your type at all!”
“Ya!” Laughing at him, Sehun flicked him
again. “Don’t get smug.”
“I
don’t know anything about your members, and I guess I’m not allowed to
know. But I wish I knew more about
them. And what you do with them and how
they treat you and everything.”
“I’d
tell you, but it’s still kind of early for you to hear all about it.”
“What’s
private is private,” he said, nodding.
Sehun
chuckled, thumb rubbing over the tip of Hwanhee’s nose. “Yeah.
But once our members are closer, you’ll probably end up knowing a lot
more than you wanted to.” His thumb
brushed over Hwanhee’s mouth. “I’m
really, really fucking possessive, and I want to start a fight with anybody who
tries to touch you. I might turn into a
huge jerk if my members try to get closer to you. Don’t pay attention to it, don’t let me get
away with it. Your sex life is totally
up to you, you can have sex with anyone you want. Your members, my members, anybody you’re
into, it’s none of my business.”
“But
you own me.”
“I
don’t actually-”
“You
own me,” he repeated, and he wasn’t going to let Sehun tell him otherwise. “But I thought that you wanted me to do it
with my members. You’re the one who
keeps telling me to take my vitamins.”
“I
want you to get what you need, and if I can’t be there to do it myself, at
least they can pitch in. That doesn’t
mean I love the idea of other guys doing stuff to you.”
Really? “Are you jealous?” That was fascinating. “But they’re my members! I don’t even think that counts.” He laughed.
“That’s what we keep telling Wei hyung, anyway. Whatever goes on between members doesn’t
count. A lot of stuff happens at the
dorm, we’re bored, we’re stuck together, none of it means anything.”
“I’m
not jealous,” Sehun said. “I’m
possessive. It’s not the same thing.”
No,
he was jealous. That was so funny! “You can’t be jealous of my members. They’re just my hyungs. And Xiao, he’s my best friend, it doesn’t
mean anything. Wait,” wait, hold on,
“what are you talking about? When you
said that your members might try to get closer to me, what - - what - - what do
you mean?”
“What
do you think I mean?” Sehun asked. “I mean
Baekhyun hyung’s not crawling all over Wei every chance he gets because he
thinks Wei’s funny.”
Sex. Sex with EXO.
Sehun was talking about sex with EXO.
“Can I have sex with King Suho?”
Excited, he crawled up onto the bed, needing to hear more. Sehun rolled over, starting to sit up, and he
pushed Sehun back down, climbing on top.
“Can I do it with Baekhyun hyung?
Can he bite me some more? Can I
kiss Chen sunbae? I really want to kiss
Chen sunbae, I have to learn how he does it.”
Laughing,
Sehun stroked his neck. “Don’t look
forward to it too much, they’re not that great.”
It
was EXO, though. They were the most
important group in this generation of idols.
He didn’t need them to have great technique, he just needed them to hold
still long enough to let him get a mouthful.
“Your members are so sexy, though, and they’re so good-looking.”
“Not
as good-looking as I am.”
“No,
no, not like you,” he said. “You’re
always the greatest. But King Suho’s so
good-looking, though, and Baekhyun hyung’s so sexy.”
“You
think Baekhyun hyung’s sexy?” Sehun asked.
“Hwanhee-ah, I’m worried about your taste.” The backs of his fingers caressed up and down
Hwanhee’s neck. “I don’t know if Jinhoo
will let you do any of them. If he won’t
let you near Teen Top, I don’t think he’ll let you near my members,
either.” He looked conflicted for a
second, thoughtful. “I like that. I’m glad that he restricts you so much,
because you’re mine, and I don’t want a bunch of selfish jerks all over
you. But you should be able to do
whatever you want, and have sex on your own terms, not everyone else’s, so I’m
going to push him to let you do it.”
“But
you don’t want me to.” Oh Sehun was
jealous and didn’t want other guys touching him. He held onto that thought happily. “That’s okay.
If I have you, I don’t need anybody else. You’re my prince, that’s what matters.”
“You
should be with anybody you want.”
“But
you don’t want me to,” he said again.
“It
doesn’t matter what I want.”
“It
doesn’t matter what I want,” he corrected.
“What you want is the only thing that’s important.”
“That’s
only true inside a scene,” Sehun argued.
“But
you own me all of the time. Whether
we’re in a scene or not. You own me
right now, so what you want matters right now.”
Sehun
looked exasperated. “That’s not how this
works. That can’t be how this works, you
can’t think of it that way.”
“I
think you don’t know how this works,”
he realized.
Hand
closing over the base of his neck, Sehun pushed him up. Sitting back, he swallowed reflexively. Frowning at him, Sehun let go. “I’m not your prince outside of a scene.”
“Yes,
you are.” Was he confused? “Do you not think of me as your pet?”
Sehun
growled a little, looking annoyed.
“Yes,” he admitted. “But that’s
just inside my head, it’s not real.
That’s why I can’t let myself be so possessive, because you’re your own
person, you’re independent, I don’t actually own you.”
“You
do own me.”
“You
know what I mean.”
“I
know how wrong you are, too.”
Groaning,
Sehun dragged his hands through his hair.
“This is going to get real fucked up if I have to start ordering you to
have sex with my members.”
Feeling
a little thrill race through him, Hwanhee squirmed. Order him to have sex with EXO. Because he was a slut. A dirty slut Sehun passed around to his
members. Would that be a
punishment? Or a reward? Getting to have sex with King Suho would
definitely be a reward. Or maybe it
wasn’t about punishments and rewards at all, no, it wasn’t about Hwanhee, he
wasn’t important enough for that. It was
about EXO, it was about Sehun doing a favor - - a small, insignificant favor -
- for his members, letting them play with one of his toys. They’d gang up on him, pass him around, use
his fuckholes, make him perform tricks, leave him messy and sore and used on
the floor, and he’d crawl back to his owner like the loyal pet that he was.
He
didn’t even know Sehun’s members that well.
Not well enough to trust them with all of that! He didn’t know what they were like when it
came to sex. But if Sehun ordered him to
do it, he had to go. He’d learn in the
moment, he’d learn what they wanted when they took it from him.
He
dwelled on the fantasy, wanting to delve into it but shying away, ashamed of
his own desires, flitting around the edges of it. Then he realized how quiet Sehun had been,
for how long, and he looked up to see Sehun watching him with a focused,
attentive expression.
His
shame spreading, deepening, heating up, he licked his lips, hoping that princes
couldn’t read minds. “Hyung?”
“Do
you want to show me what a slut you are?”
Moaning,
he realized that princes could read minds.
And it was one of their best traits.
He loved it when Sehun understood him this well, the way Sehun got him,
the way Sehun knew what he wanted and how his need worked. He’d gone from constantly feeling
misunderstood to having a prince who said all of the things he’d always wanted
to hear and did things he hadn’t even known to want. When he was too ashamed to admit what he
wanted, or when he was so ashamed he was confused and didn’t even know what it
was that he needed, Sehun always said just the right thing and pushed him past
his confusion into relief and satisfaction and pleasure. “Yes,” he admitted. “Yes, I want you to see it.”
Sehun
nodded and stroked the back of his neck.
Just that calm nod made him feel better.
Sehun understood him. Sehun was
in charge. He didn’t have to worry about
his shame or his need, worry that his fantasy would never come true, worry that
it might - - god, wait, what if Sehun actually - - but, no. Sehun was in control. I’m the
owner, I’m in charge. There’s nothing
that you ever need to worry about. It’s
my job to handle everything.
Relaxing, he leaned closer, and Sehun squeezed the back of his neck,
kissed the top of his head. Maybe it
would never happen. Maybe it would
happen this week. He didn’t need to
worry about it; none of that was up to him, anyway.
“Hwanhee-ah.” He curled up with his head in Sehun’s
lap. “How do you feel about regular
sex?”
“I
love it.”
“Do
you have it? Do you like it? Where does your head go when you’re with your
members?”
“Yeah,
it’s normal. It’s great. It’s not intense, like it is with you. But it turns me on, it gets me off. It’s fun.”
“Is
it romantic?”
“Romantic,”
he repeated, and he laughed. Raising his
head, he looked up at Sehun. “They’re my
members! That’s not romantic. We’re not dating.” Ew, that would be weird. He snuggled in again.
“Who
would you want to date? Who’s your
type?”
“I
don’t know.” He wanted to say L, but he
suspected that wouldn’t go over well.
“Chunji hyung’s so pretty. Or Nam
Woohyun sunbae. Or King Suho!”
“The
three of them don’t have anything in common, that’s not a type.” As soon as he’d said that, Sehun said, “You
think they’re doms, don’t you?”
“King
Suho owns you, that-”
“He
doesn’t! Nobody owns me. How the hell do you get these ideas stuck in
your head?”
“Why
do you keep denying what’s true?” he asked, sitting up, laughing. “King Suho owns you. An owner’s owner is, what, is there a term
for that? Like a head owner. And Nam Woohyun sunbae is a secondary prince,
he’s not my prince, but he could be somebody’s prince. And Chunji hyung.” Blushing, he licked his lips. “He says really embarrassing things to me,
and he doesn’t get shy about it at all.
And when I say really embarrassing things to him, he just laughs and
asks me to tell him more. I don’t think
he’s ever been ashamed of anything.” He
had to know. “Do you still not like L sunbae?”
“Stay
away from L hyung.” Sehun said it
quietly, but he said it firmly, too.
“I’m not being a possessive jerk, I’m looking out for you. You can’t trust him.”
But
Changjo trusted him. Either Sehun was
wrong, or Changjo was wrong. And if
Changjo was wrong, then somebody had to warn him. Hwanhee couldn’t just let Changjo stay with
somebody bad for him. “I’ll just like
the way he looks and not think more about him,” Hwanhee said. “If you don’t like him, I’m glad he’s not
dating King Suho, then. We kind of
thought he was, for a while. It seemed
like King Suho was dating Changjo hyung, and then we thought that King Suho was
dating L sunbae, and we couldn’t tell what was going on. I wanted to support Changjo hyung, I should
be loyal, he’s a company sunbae, I can’t root against him! But L sunbae’s so good-looking, and so chic,
I really thought King Suho would end up with him. But then Changjo hyung and L sunbae ended up
together, and King Suho doesn’t have anybody?
That doesn’t make sense, who wouldn’t want to be with King Suho? He’s EXO’s leader!”
“Is
he?” Sehun asked, smiling, stroking Hwanhee’s sideburns. “I didn’t know.”
“Well,
he is,” Hwanhee insisted, laughing. “And
he’s really good-looking! I really like
Changjo hyung, don’t ever say that I said anything bad about him! But if I were L sunbae, I might’ve gone with
King Suho.”
“Suho
hyung’s very busy taking care of his other responsibilities,” Sehun said. “He’s not going to date foolish kids like
Changjo, anyway.”
“Foolish
kids! You can’t talk about Changjo hyung
that way.” He loved it. “Do you like roleplaying?”
“Roleplaying
like what?” Sehun asked. “Like in
sex? Like somebody dressing up like a
servant and doing my laundry?”
“No,
that’s real,” Hwanhee said. “You’re a
real prince and I’m a real servant, that’s not roleplaying. I mean, like, pretending to be somebody else
in bed. Or calling out somebody else’s
name, or, like. Do you like that?”
“Do
I like doing it, no, it’s annoying. Do I
want you to do it, yeah, probably. Why,
what are you thinking about?”
“Somebody
said, uh, one of my hyungs, um. Never
mind, that’s not, uh.” Running out of
ways to wiggle out of it, he tried, “What’s private is private? But if you like roleplaying, I can do it for
you. I wanted to find more outfits to
wear for you, anyway. What would you
want, should I be something fun? Xiao
said that Baekhyun hyung told him to get a cheerleader costume, should I be a
cheerleader for you?”
“Baekhyun
hyung said that?”
He
nodded. “I asked him about my uniform,
which one I should get for you, but he wouldn’t help me at all. But if-”
“You
asked Baekhyun hyung about your servant’s uniform? The bellhop one?” Sehun’s eyes were getting wider. “Has he seen it?”
“Not
that one, but a bunch of other ones like it.
I sent him links.” The way Sehun
was staring at him didn’t seem good.
Feeling misery twist in his gut, he bit his lip. He’d screwed up, hadn’t he? “He’s your hyung, I thought-”
“No,
it’s okay,” Sehun said.
“You’ve
been members for years, you’re all so close-”
“It’s
okay, pet, it-”
“You
hate it, don’t you? You didn’t want me
to tell him.”
“It’s
your privacy, you can tell anything you want.”
“It’s
yours, too. But I thought it was
okay. He’s your hyung! Who doesn’t know everything there is to know
about his own maknae?”
“It’s
okay-”
“Stop
saying that! It’s not!” He felt stupid, he felt embarrassed. Showing Baekhyun his uniforms, what had he
been thinking? He felt shame trying to
overtake him, and he tried to push it back down. “I thought you were closer,” he mumbled. “Baekhyun hyung was being so friendly, he bit
me and everything. I wanted to find the
right uniform, I wanted to know which one you’d like. I thought that he’d know.”
“We
are close,” Sehun said. “I just work
really hard to protect my pet’s privacy.
It’s okay if you want to confide in my members, they’re safe. I’ll just have to make them understand that
I’ll have to hurt them if they ever do anything to embarrass you.”
“A
maknae’s threats don’t mean anything.”
“Look,
my hyungs are kind of stupid. Maybe if
you want to ask about uniforms, you could ask Chunji hyung. You already trust him, and he might, I don’t
know. I don’t know if that’s a great
idea or a really bad one.” Sehun hesitated. “You already asked him about the uniforms,
didn’t you?”
“No.” He was relieved to be able to say that. “We’ve talked about some other things, but I
haven’t given him a lot of details. I
didn’t know how close you were. Is it
okay to talk to him?”
“If
you want to talk to somebody, if he’s okay with it, I’m okay with it. At least I don’t think he’ll say anything
thoughtless and hurt your feelings.”
Was
Chunji a prince? That explained a
lot. Then why couldn’t Chunji have been
Hwanhee’s prince? Maybe Chunji already
had a servant. But who - - wait, was
Infinite’s Dongwoo Chunji’s servant? Was
it Xiumin? No, Dongwoo. But Dongwoo was so nice! “Is Dongwoo sunbae a pet?”
“No. No, and stop coming up with ideas about other
idols,” Sehun scolded. “You think about
Infinite too much.”
“They’re
around our company building a lot. And
they’re really nice.” He guessed that
not everybody could be a prince. He
couldn’t make assumptions about Chunji.
Or Suho. Or Woohyun. Or L.
There were definitely princes out there, though. “What kind of stuff is it okay to tell Chunji
hyung? Or what kind of stuff do you not
want me to say?”
“It
should be up to you.”
“But
you didn’t want me to tell Baekhyun hyung about the uniforms. And you don’t want me to say ‘prince’ in
front of anybody. And nobody can know
that ‘badminton’ is our word. Should I
not say anything? I can keep it to
myself. What’s private is private.”
“Why
do you keep saying that? Where did you
get that from?”
“From
you, it’s what you say.”
“That’s
disturbing.” Sehun shifted, leaning back
against the wall, and then reached out and scooped Hwanhee up, pulling him
in. Startled, happy, he laughed, getting
comfortable on Sehun’s lap. “It’s your
sex life, say whatever you want.”
“But
it’s also your sex life, and if you don’t tell people those things, I
shouldn’t, either.”
“If
you’re comfortable talking about it, if that makes you feel better, then I want
you to.”
It
did. Sehun knew him really well. Charmed, he rested his head on Sehun’s
shoulder and reached up-
Sehun
pushed his hand down. “If Chunji hyung’s
okay with it, talk to him.”
“You
really don’t tell your hyungs anything?”
“I
don’t. I can’t, pet. It’s not mine to tell.”
“Does
it embarrass you?”
“No,
I’m proud as hell,” Sehun said. “I want
everybody to know. But I do think that
there are parts of it that they wouldn’t understand. I would hate it if they made the wrong
assumption, or embarrassed you, or took something the wrong way.”
“They
don’t know about the dog bowls.”
“No. No, pet, I know that’s private, that’s just
between us.”
“The
collar?”
“No.”
He
tried to think of something really basic.
“The grapes?”
“No.”
Wow,
what did they know about? “The
laundry? That I fold your socks and hang
up your shirts?”
“No.”
“They
know I cleaned the dorm, don’t they?”
“No. Most of them didn’t even notice or care.”
Aw! Disappointed, he grumbled, snuggling in
closer to console himself. “But they
know that you bite me.”
“They
know now, because you told Baekhyun hyung, and he keeps talking about it.”
Oh! Really?
“Sorry,” he mumbled, embarrassed.
Sehun had to be so pissed off at him.
Why wasn’t his prince angrier about it?
“They don’t know you tie me up, then.”
“They
know I like doing it. They don’t know if
I do it to you, or how, or with what.”
“Do
they know that you slap me?”
“No.”
“But
they know you’re rough with me.”
“No.”
But
they had to. He sat up straighter,
peering into Sehun’s face. “They don’t
know that you…”
Sehun
shook his head.
He
was baffled. “What do they think we do
together?”
“They
don’t know. I’ve never told them. They know that I like certain things, but
they don’t know what that looks like when I do it with you. Once in a while, I’ve tried tying their
ankles or their wrists with a necklace chain or string or something, but that’s
all they know about it, and they all hate it, anyway. Once in a while they tell me to stop using my
teeth on them, but they don’t know what that means when I’m with you. And I’ve never had rough sex with my members,
I’ve never done anything that would seem like I’m forcing myself on them. I used to...”
His voice trailed off and he laughed.
“I used to try to do simple stuff with them, I tried ordering Chanyeol
hyung around, but it was always stupid, it never meant anything. It’s nothing like it is with you.”
Then
they really didn’t know.
Sehun
had kept everything a secret.
But
that also meant that Sehun never got any of this out. He never got to play with his members, even a
little bit. They complained about it
when he tried. He couldn’t chew on them
or tie their hands or anything. No
wonder having a pet meant so much to him.
He didn’t have anything else but Hwanhee. “What’s wrong with your members?”
“What?”
Sehun asked. “Nothing. Pet-”
“They
can’t even play along?” he demanded.
“Not even for fun?”
“They’re
not into it. Not everybody likes that
kind of sex, it’s okay.”
“Baekhyun
hyung likes you, he can’t let you tie him up a little sometimes? Kai hyung’s your age, he can’t wear a collar
once in a while? It wouldn’t hurt to try
it. Are your members selfish?” he asked
in disbelief.
“Stop
casting aspersions on my members, they’re fine,” Sehun said. “Not everybody wants to be tied up. You don’t even like being tied up.”
“It’s
very comfortable,” he insisted. “I like
everything you do to me. Everything you
let me do,” he corrected himself.
“Your
members don’t put collars on you, my members don’t want to wear collars for
me,” Sehun said. “They’re just not into
it. It’s fine.” Sehun caressed his cheek, smiling and
affectionate. “That’s why I have
you. I don’t want to play, anyway. I don’t want somebody to wear a collar for
fun, just to mess around. I want a real
pet.”
Hwanhee
wasn’t convinced. “If your members were
real pets, which one would you want to own the most?”
“I’m
not telling you that.”
He
was troubled. “I feel like if they don’t
know these things about you, they don’t really know you. That’s okay for, you know, your friends, but
you’re close to your members, aren’t you?
And you all have sex together. I
feel like if they don’t know that you have a pet, then they don’t know
important-” He cut himself off. Wait, “If you don’t use words like ‘prince’
and ‘servant,’ and you don’t use ‘pet’ and ‘owner,’ either, do they even know
that you have a pet?”
“They
know that I’m your dom.”
“But
they don’t know that you own me.”
“Not
really.”
“They
don’t even know that you own me,” he repeated.
He was astounded. “What do they
call it?”
“I’m
your dom. You’re my sub. Suho hyung calls it a ‘special
relationship.’”
“They
don’t know that you have a pet! They
don’t know anything about you.”
“It’s
private, it’s fine. I don’t need them to
know. They’re my hyungs, they don’t
think of me that way. I’m just a silly
kid to them.”
“But
you’re not ashamed of it, so why can’t you just tell them?”
“Because
it’s not mine to tell. You remember
everything I say and you never hear me.
This is your secret, it’s your privacy.
I’m not protecting myself, I don’t care about myself, I care about you.”
“I
think they should know. I think that
King Suho should definitely know. He has
to understand these things about you, he’s your-”
“He’s
not my-”
“-owner,”
they said together.
Sehun
glared at him.
“You
should tell him,” Hwanhee said.
“Suho
hyung really doesn’t want to know that I tied you to the vacuum cleaner and ran
the cord up the crack of your ass.”
“He’s
your-”
“You
say that one more time and I’m saying ‘badminton,’” Sehun warned him.
Oh,
was that a button he could push? “Owner,
owner, he’s your owner, he owns you, King Suho owns you like you own me.”
“Badminton.”
He
braced himself.
Sehun
slapped him.
The
light smack of Sehun’s palm against his cheek took his breath away. Not from the violence of it, but from his own
joy at the sweet sting of pleasure. He
loved being slapped. Even when it didn’t
hurt, it put him in his place, it was a reminder that Sehun could do anything
to him, could treat him in any way, could be rude and disrespectful and he was
never going to defend himself against it.
Letting Sehun treat him so badly, letting Sehun get away with it, turned
him on.
“You
should tell King Suho about me,” Hwanhee said.
“That I’m your pet, that you own me, everything.” And then he realized.
Sehun
hadn’t said “badminton” again.
They
were still in the scene.
Had
Sehun forgotten? Were they only
technically in a scene, but Sehun didn’t realize it? Licking his lips, he studied Sehun’s face,
trying to tell, but Sehun’s expression was too calm to read.
His
heart pounded. They were in a
scene. They were playing badminton. And as long as he didn’t do anything to
remind Sehun, they’d stay in the scene.
At least in his head. He tended
to slip into really formal language while they were in a scene, but he could
just keep speaking normally, this one time.
Sehun
ran his knuckles along Hwanhee’s jaw.
“He doesn’t want to hear about that.”
His thumb rubbed under Hwanhee’s chin.
“How much have you told Jinhoo?
Everything?”
“Not
all of it. He doesn’t know how rough
the, uh, how rough you are with me. He
doesn’t know about the collar. But he
knows about the harness, he knows that I clean for you, he knows that I’m your
servant.” He blushed. “He probably knows that you own me. I didn’t mean to tell him, but it comes out a
lot, when I jack off. I just, I say it,
it feels really good. But we haven’t
talked about it.” He didn’t want to give
everything away, but, “He got me an extra outfit to wear for you. Just for that. So he knows a lot, he supports us.”
“Really.”
He
nodded. “Yes.” It was hard not to say “hyungnim” or “Prince
Sehun.” He really wanted to be on his
knees. He really wanted to be naked.
“What
kind of outfit?”
He
had to answer his prince! But he didn’t
want to spoil the surprise. Struggling
to find the right answer, he said, “It’s pretty. A pretty outfit. I hope you’ll like it.”
“You’re
already pretty.” Sehun tipped Hwanhee’s
chin up, staring at his mouth like it needed to be punished. Heat spread through him and he moaned,
arching his back. “Such a pretty little
pet.” Sehun’s tongue flicked out,
licking his jaw, soft and wet against his cheek. “I didn’t know you liked dressing up for your
leader.”
“No,
not for him. I don’t wear things for
him, that’d be weird unless he did it too and it was, like, for a party or the
fans or something. It’s for you. All of my special outfits are just for
you.” Sehun was still licking his
face. Lightly, delicately, tongue
slithering over his cheek. He was so
turned on he was whimpering. “I want to
look nice for you.”
“You’re
a hot little pet,” Sehun whispered, nose brushing his cheek, teeth grazing his
jaw. “Nobody needs to know that I own
you, except you. Nobody needs to know
that I can have you however I want you, except you. Nobody needs to know what you’ll do for me,
expect you.”
“Anything,”
he promised. “I’ll do anything for you.”
Sehun
stroked the back of his head, fingers gentle in his hair. “What else did you want to ask me about,
pet?”
He
moaned, shifting on Sehun’s lap. “Will
you fuck me, please?”
Sehun
chuckled, kissing his cheek. “What else
did you want to ask?”
He
rubbed his face against Sehun’s shoulder.
If they were only in a scene on a technicality, only inside his head,
then he might be able to get away with things.
Sehun might not notice, might not mind.
He mouthed at Sehun’s shoulder, caught Sehun’s shirt between his
teeth. He nuzzled Sehun’s neck. “Can I come over sometimes?” He winced, embarrassed, worried how Sehun
would react. “I wouldn’t bother
you. I just want to be around. It wouldn’t be all of the time, just once in
a while, if I have free time. Which
isn’t often, seriously, I usually only have one hour to sleep. But I could come over and clean up. I could fetch you drinks, anything you
want. Or I’d stay out of your way. I asked Jinhoo hyung, and he said that he’d
talk to King Suho, and King Suho said that it was okay with him if it was okay
with you, and I don’t know if they’ve asked you yet, but - - I wouldn’t bother
you, I swear it. I can sit on the floor
like a quiet pet.”
“We
can’t play badminton in front of other people.”
“But
you own me all of the time. And I can
fold laundry in front of your members, that’s not weird, I fold laundry for my
own members all of the time, that won’t bother anybody.”
Sehun
was still stroking his hair. Petting
him. He was a pet. Bliss suffused him and he shyly, delicately
mouthed Sehun’s neck, wanting to kiss it.
“There are days that I have time to see you, I just don’t have enough
privacy for it. If you can come over,
I’ll be glad to see you. Even if I can’t
put your collar on, you’re still my pet, and I still want you here.” Sehun ruffled the hairs at his nape until he
shivered. “Do you want me to show up at
your dorm and visit you?”
“What?” Surprised, he raised his head. “You’d do that?” Oh, god, “No!
I can’t have royalty in my dorm!
I can’t have EXO around my members!
We’re foolish, we’re messy, I don’t want you to see us like that!”
Sehun
chuckled, pinching his earlobe. “My members
and I are foolish and messy, too, I’m used to it.”
“EXO’s
Oh Sehun, just hanging out at my dorm,” Hwanhee said to himself. How would that go? He had trouble imagining it. His prince in front of his members? But his prince was special, important, powerful
and majestic, and his members were just a bunch of annoying hyungs and
Xiao. He couldn’t make them fit
together. His thoughts were already
going back to what it would be like if he could drop by EXO’s dorm. “I could bring you snacks.”
“You’re
my snack,” Sehun whispered, teasing, nibbling on him. He laughed, squirming, loving it. “My tasty little snack.” It was so flirtatious and fun and sexy, he
wrapped his arm around Sehun, feeling bold, happy. “Such a cute pet,” Sehun murmured, nipping at
his cheekbone.
“A
happy pet,” he said, basking in Sehun’s attention.
“Mmm.” A deep, peaceful hum, and Sehun left a trail
of kisses up the side of his face. “Are
you happy, pet?”
“Yes,
you make me so happy, thank you.” With
one arm around him, Sehun was reaching over to the nightstand. “I’m always happy when I’m with you.” When Sehun slid the drawer open, he tried to
get a peek inside, curious, and then he saw Sehun pluck out red cloth.
Strips
of cloth.
Uncertain,
he shivered.
“Yeah?” There were three red strips. Hwanhee swallowed as Sehun threaded one
through his silver bracelet. “What makes
you so happy?”
They
were definitely playing badminton.
“Hyungnim?” His voice shook. He didn’t want to rest comfortably.
“I
asked you a question, Hwan-ah.”
“You! You make me happy, it’s you, every
time.” Sehun was knotting the cloth
around his bracelet. “I’m lucky to have
a prince who’s so good at this. You’re
so good at, at,” his voice was trembling again.
“Both hands?”
“Yep.” Sehun was threading the same strip through
his other bracelet, tying his wrists together.
His wrists were tied together.
The knots looked really tight. He
moved his hand - - not to get away! Not
to try to get free! Just to test the
knots. They held really well. But if his wrists were tied, he couldn’t
touch his prince. Couldn’t do
anything. He whimpered, leaning against
Sehun’s shoulder, needing comfort. If
his prince thought that he didn’t need his hands, then he didn’t. That was that. There was nothing to worry about.
“It’s
okay,” he told himself. “It’s okay. This is comfortable. I’m okay.”
It was more comfortable than the vacuum cleaner, and that had been
really comfortable, right? Sehun had
said so. He swallowed, trying to
focus. “You make me so happy. I’m a happy pet.”
“Yeah?” Sehun was looping and knotting the second
strip, tying his bracelets together.
Wasn’t the first strip enough?
Did he need two of them? “What
are you happy about right now?”
“You.” He couldn’t look away from Sehun’s calm,
efficient hands in his lap. “Being with
you.” He was trying really hard to sound
normal, because Sehun was acting really normal, but this didn’t seem normal at
all. His heart was racing and he kept
shuddering and he felt hot all over. His
hands were tied and he felt really powerless.
But that was okay. Everything was
okay. He didn’t need to be in power, he
didn’t need to have control over anything.
Sehun was in charge. His powerful
prince was in control. “It’s okay,” he
said again. “This makes me happy.”
“Yeah?” Sehun started tying the first two strips
together with the third one. He threaded
it through, wove them all together, knotting it in four places. Forcing his hands closer together, making
sure that he was trapped in this position.
“You’re happy like this?”
“Yes,
thank you.” He stared down at his
wrists, fascinated. He was trapped like
this. The three red strips were knotted
together in such a complicated configuration that he wouldn’t know where to
start to pull it all apart, wouldn’t know which knots to pick at first. The flashes of his silver bracelets looked
pretty against the vivid red cloth. It
looked like art but it was on his body.
He was helpless, and that made him want to panic, but he was okay, “This
is okay,” he was okay, “I’m okay. I like
this. This makes me happy.”
“Pet,
you keep saying that, but I don’t believe you.”
Sehun nuzzled the side of his neck.
The intimacy of it, the sweet sensation, made him shudder with dreamy
pleasure. He arched his back, tipping his
head to one side, as Sehun kissed the crook of his neck. “What do you like about being tied up?”
“I
like that you like it. You want it, so I
want it.”
“Do
you want to be tied up?” Sehun whispered, licking his jaw.
“Yes. Yes, I want to be whatever you want me to
be.” His breath caught as Sehun kissed
behind his ear. “Oh, you’re so good to
me.”
“You’re
delicious,” Sehun whispered, nibbling on the side of his neck.
He
felt delicious. He felt incredible. “I want to be whatever you want,” he said again. “I’ll do anything for you.” Bold, enchanted, he rubbed his cheek against
Sehun’s, soaking up skinship.
Sehun’s
tongue slid along his jaw, sleek and wet.
“I own you, Hwan-ah.”
“Yes,”
he breathed, ecstatic. “Yes, you own
me.”
A
soft, hissing sound. Sehun’s teeth
grazed his chin, and the intimate threat made his heart skip a beat. “My pretty little pet,” Sehun whispered,
nibbling across his cheekbone. “You
belong to me.”
He
was getting so much skinship, he couldn’t believe it. Sehun was being so generous with him, he
wanted to remember everything about this moment, the secretive sound of Sehun’s
whisper, the wet glide of Sehun’s tongue over his skin, the sweet bite of
Sehun’s teeth. The peppery scent of
Sehun’s cologne.
Sehun
lifted him slightly, and then Sehun’s knees parted. He was dropped lightly, between Sehun’s
spread thighs, and Sehun’s legs closed around him, trapping him. Loving that, he snuggled up closer against
Sehun’s chest. With his right side tight
against Sehun, he held his bound arms tucked close against his chest. He couldn’t put his mouth on his owner just
anywhere he wanted, but he tucked his face against the soft cotton of Sehun’s
shirt, kissing tenderly through it.
Cupping
his chin, Sehun tilted his face up. His
heart pounding, his lips parted. While
Sehun stared at him, he ate his owner up with greedy eyes. Sehun was so handsome, it hurt. That was what truly hurt him. Feeling this way about Sehun, needing Sehun
so badly all of the time, the intensity of his emotions, the way he responded
to Sehun, that hurt more than any bite.
It was a constant ache, a craving he couldn’t get away from.
Sehun’s
grip tightened on his chin, holding him in place, and then Sehun leaned
in. He held absolutely still, whimpering
with excitement, as Sehun’s mouth neared his.
And then Sehun bit his lower lip.
A slow, hard bite, Sehun’s teeth closing on his lower lip. When Sehun released his lip, he could still
feel it, the pain reminding him, proving that it had really happened. A soft, threatening growl thrilled him, and
then Sehun did it again, a sudden nip.
Hands framing his face, Sehun stared at him. Sehun’s hot, dark gazed raked slowly over his
face, and he shuddered in Sehun’s hold.
Bound, helpless, he was trapped there, caught between Sehun’s legs,
Sehun’s hands holding him still, the burning intensity of Sehun’s stare not
missing a detail, not letting him go.
Sehun’s scrutiny scraped him raw, and the severe, black lines of Sehun’s
eyebrows were like a warning.
Then,
shocking in its happiness, sudden and bright, a smile broke over Sehun’s
face. With a fleeting, soft chuckle,
Sehun buried his face in Hwanhee’s neck, biting. It was a light, teasing bite, and then Sehun
sighed. It was such a satisfied,
contented sound, it bathed Hwanhee’s heart in its healing warmth. Relaxing, Sehun leaned back against the wall,
cuddling Hwanhee against his chest.
Wrapped up in Sehun’s possessive arms, Hwanhee felt secure. This was exactly, exactly where he wanted to be.
Curling
up, boneless in Sehun’s embrace, he licked lazily at the red cloth binding his
wrists.
Sehun
toyed with his hair, ruffling it. He
felt like he was dreaming. “If you’re so
worried about what my leader knows, is there anything that you want your leader
to know? Anything that you want me to
tell Jinhoo for you?”
“Mmm. No, thank you, hyungnim.”
“Is
there anything else that you want to ask me?”
“Yes,
please.” He stopped licking his bonds
for a moment, trying to choose the right words.
“Did you respect the First Pet?”
“Of
course. He’s one of the bravest people
I’ve ever met.” Sehun tugged on his hair
and kissed his cheek. “Pet, I don’t want
you to worry about how I feel about anybody else or what happens between me and
other guys. You don’t have to worry
about other pets or if I notice Hongbin hyung or how Chen hyung kisses or
anything else. You don’t have to learn
anything or figure out what I’m looking for.
You already know everything there is to know about how to be with
me. You’re already everything that I
want.”
Soaking
up every single word, he held his breath, rapt.
Sehun
nuzzled his ear, nibbling on him, legs squeezing him tightly. “You’re all I want, Hwan-ah. If I want anything else from you, you won’t
have to guess or ask around or find out from somebody else. I’ll tell you myself, I’ll tell you what I
want. But you’re already perfect for me,
just the way you are.” Sehun’s voice was
soft, his thumb rubbing circles along Hwanhee’s jaw. Hwanhee was surrounded in him, his embrace,
his control. “I want you to be you, just
you. Natural and honest and here for
me.”
“I’m
here for you,” Hwanhee whispered, aching with devotion.
“Right
now, when it comes to what I need, you know me better than anyone else. You know what I like, you give it to me every
time we’re together. Other guys, my
hyungs, they should be coming to you for advice, not the other way
around.” Sehun’s lips brushed over his
cheek, then again, feathering soft kisses over the side of his face. “My Hwan-ah gives me just what I want.”
His
heart was so full, he felt overcome.
Sehun was telling him things that he’d never expected to hear. His owner was talking to him like this inside of a scene. He wanted to capture every single word
and hold onto it. “Thank you, Prince
Sehun. Thank you for letting me belong
to you, thank you for choosing me.”
“I
like it when you thank me for things,” Sehun murmured, nuzzling his cheek.
“Thank
you,” he said immediately, and Sehun chuckled appreciatively. “Thank you, hyungnim, thank you for
everything.” Having his owner
surrounding him like this, so directly close up on his face, was making it hard
for him to gather his thoughts together enough to say what he wanted to say. But this was important. “I’m really happy to be your pet. I’ll try really, really hard to be a good
pet, a pet that you can be proud of.”
“You’re
a delicious pet,” Sehun whispered, kissing his ear.
Sehun’s
praise hit him in places that no one else had ever touched. “Thank you,” he breathed, burrowing more
tightly into Sehun’s embrace. “At first
- - at first you said that you didn’t want a pet, and you weren’t sure about
me, but - - but you gave me a chance, and I hope that you’ll never regret it. I hope that I never make you sorry that you
gave me a chance. Even if there were a
million other doms out there, all kinds of other princes, you’re the only one I
want. I can’t believe that I have you in
my life, I can’t believe that you’re real.
I’ll never let you go, I won’t, I can’t.
I can’t,” he repeated, and he couldn’t talk that way to his owner but he
said it again, insistent in his desperation, “I can’t.”
“I
know, pet.” Sehun’s hand cupped the back
of his head, shielding him, and he buried his face against Sehun’s chest, his
bound hands grasping at the front of Sehun’s shirt, just needing to hold
on. “Don’t worry, Hwan-ah.” Sehun stroked his hair, voice deep and
soft. He felt inescapably caught, and he
felt completely protected. “You don’t
have to worry about that, because I’d never let you go.” Sehun’s head was bent over his, Sehun’s hand
covering his nape. “You belong to me,
now, you’re mine,” Sehun whispered, “and I’m never going to let anything or
anybody ever take you away from me.”
When
they said good-bye, Hwanhee hugged Sehun for a long time. Sehun let him, cupped the back of his head
and whispered, “Thank you,” and let him stay for as long as he wanted.
His
head was full. His heart was full. They’d said so much, and he’d felt so much,
and Sehun had filled him up with that intense, thrilled, devoted feeling he
lived for. When he got back to the dorm,
Sehun texted him. Thank you for asking to talk to me, Hwanhee-ah. I’m glad that we said what we said. Which meant that, even after it was over,
Sehun wasn’t trying to take any of it back.
In
bed the next morning, he masturbated slowly, tenderly working himself over,
remembering last night, when he’d sat on Sehun’s lap and nuzzled Sehun’s neck,
when Sehun had nibbled on him and called him a tasty little snack, when Sehun
had treated him like such a spoiled pet.
Spent,
woozy, he rolled onto his stomach. He
and Sehun had said a lot to each other, last night. He’d said a lot of embarrassing things, and
Sehun had said a lot of amazing things, and it was all swirling around so much
in his head, he wanted to go through it all to make sure that he didn’t lose
any of it.
Sehun
liked him. Or, didn’t like him. “It’s
not that. It’s different from that. It’s a lot more intense than that.” That seemed, um. That seemed important. And it hadn’t sounded like something Sehun
had really wanted to tell him.
Sehun
respected the First Pet. He’d asked
about that because he’d been sure that the answer would be yes. And it had been. But Sehun had also talked about how brave the
First Pet was. But Sehun had called him brave, earlier, weirdly. So what did that mean? Sehun couldn’t respect him. Yeah, Sehun was a nice hyung, and everything,
but nobody could watch somebody have sex with a toilet and still hold onto
respect for him. So, no way did Sehun
actually respect him. But if bravery was
something Sehun respected, something Sehun thought was important, and - - then
did Sehun respect him, after all?
Why? For being brave? What the hell was brave about begging to be
humiliated? Nobody would look at him,
mooing in his harness, and say, “Now, there’s a brave fellow!” What did Sehun mean?
Sehun
wanted to take care of him. Wanted to
protect him and give him a bath and watch him sleep. That was incredible.
They
were in a relationship. It was a weird
relationship, it was definitely not like anybody else’s relationship he’d ever
seen, but Sehun had said it. Said it and
meant it, definitely meant it. They were
in a relationship. Not a boyfriend
relationship, but. Some kind of
relationship. He wasn’t nothing to
Sehun. He wasn’t disposable.
It
had taken a long time for that to sink in.
He couldn’t imagine why a prince would ever care about him. He’d never thought that a prince would look
at him and see anything but a hole to get off in. But Sehun saw something else in him. A dongsaeng, sometimes. A pet, sometimes. Maybe even a person.
His
owner cared about him.
His
owner was never, ever going to let him go.
He
hugged himself, thinking about it.
He
remembered the first time they’d played badminton in Sehun’s room
together. The first time Sehun had
called him a good pet. He’d asked, “What
does a pet do?” And Sehun had said, “A
pet is very important.” Those had been
the first words out of Sehun’s mouth, the first thing Sehun had told him about
what a pet was. “A pet is very
important.”
A
pet was important. He was important. Important to Sehun.
His
owner thought that he was brave. Last
night, his owner had called him special, “special as hell,” one of the most
special people Sehun had ever met. Sexy,
and cute, and perfect.
His
owner had called him a miracle. A
fucking miracle.
Sehun
had said a lot of things. And meant
them.
“I’m
a pet,” he whispered to himself, relishing it, rolling over and curling
up. “I’m a good, delicious, sexy
pet.” He was in a relationship with
EXO’s Oh Sehun. He laughed, hugging
himself, disbelieving. A
relationship! With EXO’s Oh Sehun!
Humming
happily, he dialed Sehun’s number.
“Hi,
hyung! It’s your Hwanhee calling. I hope that you have a good day, today. You’re so handsome, your fans are so lucky. Text me if you need anything, okay? Okay.
Hyung, fighting!” Smiling, he
hung up. He touched at his lower lip,
remembering the way Sehun had bitten him there.
Remembering that incredible moment.
Sehun’s mouth so close to his.
God.
Being
Sehun’s property had already been exciting enough. Fulfilling enough. Unbelievable enough. But he was important to his owner. He wasn’t like a pair of old socks. He was like a, like a, like a prized
possession. Something his owner was
proud of and wanted to show off.
Him. He, Lee Hwanhee, was somebody that EXO’s
Sehun was proud of owning and wanted to show off. Sitting up, feeling happy and bashful and
full of pride, he looked down at himself, rubbed his abs, shook his bangs out
of his eyes. “I’m a fucking miracle,” he
said, just wanting to announce it to somebody.
In
the other bed, Xiao groaned and rolled over.
Passing
by in the hallway, Kuhn said, “Yeah, that’s great. Get your ass up, get in the shower. Both of you.”
Feeling
upbeat, energized, he hopped out of bed.
More intense than liking somebody.
A lot more intense than liking somebody.
He really couldn’t describe how he felt about Sehun, he couldn’t ever
get it all pinned down and laid out, there was just too much to it. But that.
A lot more intense than liking somebody.
That seemed like a good way to start.
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